update

So guys yeah long time no see. So the year's closing out well at least for some( I still have a month and a little) but anyways so yeah what's up with me? hmmm idk. I've been thinking lately if I really have God as my first love and it's tough because I'm not sure really if my life really reflect that and it would really pain me if He's not. I'm being truly convicted because of even the smallest things. Like yesterday I was going to pray by at least 10 but I kept pushing it back until 11 because I was reading this comic. In that moment I know I did not see the infinite value of God.
I hope I can just realize more how much He's worth. I pray that to Him "show me more of who You are!" I really want to respond to Him, to worship Him truly. I realized from various sources that if worship is a response then are life should be all worship. Though I realize that music is has a strong connection to worship I would argue that helping someone in need is a greater act of worship than singing and dancing your heart out. Worship is not your mouth's song but essentially your heart's song. I want to see the Lord and respond with a life of worship. I want to give Him all I've got and it's hard really because I don't, but I have a hope that nothing is impossible for Him.
Anyways I got this Hillsong DVD that is about that(with hearts as one) hit me up if you wanna borrow it. It's really good. Anyways talk to me, encourage me, rebuke me, comment, whatever! Thanks for reading. wow pretty long, nice!