update

So guys yeah long time no see. So the year's closing out well at least for some( I still have a month and a little) but anyways so yeah what's up with me? hmmm idk. I've been thinking lately if I really have God as my first love and it's tough because I'm not sure really if my life really reflect that and it would really pain me if He's not. I'm being truly convicted because of even the smallest things. Like yesterday I was going to pray by at least 10 but I kept pushing it back until 11 because I was reading this comic. In that moment I know I did not see the infinite value of God.
I hope I can just realize more how much He's worth. I pray that to Him "show me more of who You are!" I really want to respond to Him, to worship Him truly. I realized from various sources that if worship is a response then are life should be all worship. Though I realize that music is has a strong connection to worship I would argue that helping someone in need is a greater act of worship than singing and dancing your heart out. Worship is not your mouth's song but essentially your heart's song. I want to see the Lord and respond with a life of worship. I want to give Him all I've got and it's hard really because I don't, but I have a hope that nothing is impossible for Him.
Anyways I got this Hillsong DVD that is about that(with hearts as one) hit me up if you wanna borrow it. It's really good. Anyways talk to me, encourage me, rebuke me, comment, whatever! Thanks for reading. wow pretty long, nice!

The Saviour King

Sorry i couldn't come up with a more appropriate title, but that's all i can think of.

So today I've been reminded of Jesus and God's great act that they both took part and not just because it's Easter time and i'm thinking about it because of that; it just happened.

In my bible study, today I learned about the flood. It wasn't some solution to sin, because there was still sin after, it was just judgement. I've seen that God does not tolerate sin that He is to be feared, that sin comes with severe punishment. And this didn't come to me in a bad way, but for some reason I was in awe of God.

And then I was listening to "Saviour King" by Hillsong just the title is great. So the Father and Son, above all creation, came to save us. On that cross something great happened. The Father turned all His wrath onto His Son, because His Son bore the sins of all of us. To think how the sins of the people of the beginning was deserving of a flood, think of how great the wrath is that comes with every single sin of everyone that ever lived and will live. The Father loved the Son so much, but He had to pour out all His wrath on His Son... and as He did He looked away because of all the sins His Son bore. The Son cried out "Why have you forsaken me?" even though He well knew, but it hurt so much. And when it was finished, He died.

Now He has risen and He is exalted high! Seated now with His Father. He who saved us is now Lord of all. He truly is the Saviour King.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_7BQzic-zLs

prayer

so wow i just had a really good personal prayer today since a long time. I just wanted to keep on going but i also have homework:( anyways wow it was awesome.

To Love

What we are meant to do is love. Just love.

But what am I doing? I'm just caught up in the whole being a christian act, what other christians would say about my lifestyle, and just doing for the sake of doing.

I want to know that everything I do is out of love. I don't want to spread the gospel for the sake of me but for the sake of God and for the sake of others. I want to know and have God's heart. I want to be able to chat, talk, sing, and even blog out of love. I want to look and see the broken hearts not the sin that breaks them. I want to be able to cry out for mercy and grace, not for change.

I want to be able to see those that sit at my lunch table and weep as I feel the unsureness as they talk and as I hear what they go through.

I wasn't saved by words, but by Christ's moving love.

I gave this life to Christ, not christianity.

Garden of eden

So wow i had a really good bible study with my dad today. So basically we went over Genesis 3. I was really blown away. I stand in awe of God's love and righteousness. He cursed man and woman and banished them from the Garden because of their disobedience. He could not tolerate sin. He doesn't negotiate with it. He just says plainly to Satan "he will crush your head". Satan who was one of God's top angels, "the model of perfection, full of wisdom and perfect in beauty." But God's love does prevail. When Adam and Eve hide He does not come out angry and exterminate them, He just simply walks into the garden in the cool of the day and sadly calls out "Where are you?". God is heart broken. Adam and Eve are not in the same place they were once in their relationship with God. God makes them garments of skin suggesting he killed an animal. The same animals that Adam and Eve lovingly worked with in the garden and the ones that they knew God also dearly loved. God banishes them from the garden because he doesn't want them to eat of the tree of life, for if they do they would have to live their cursed life forever. Though sad, God already had a plan to redeem man when he said "he will crush your head and you will strike his heel."

And now we're living this promise. The whole story of the Bible comes out of this one event. Every event in the Bible and even events happening now are for the restoration of man, that same perfectness of the garden, and God's image and glory, but this time it will be way better.

New Semester

So hey guys. long time since the last time. haha. So anyways wassup in my life?
So yeah i pulled of a b in calculus yes! 79.6 or something.
Oh yeah i have a new lunch and sitting with some new dudes, so pray that i can be a light for them, except we haven't really talked yet. Just small talk so far...
So time is running out! i can't hesitate!
I feel really queezy inside right now. i just need something more...
I wonder if i'm doing anything wrong. hmmm...
I guess i just want to know more of Him, to be right with Him or probably its just that i have stomach problems idk hahaha jk but seriously my stomach is being weird.
Hmmm what is this? I just need God to satisfy me.i just need more!

School

So guys we are back to school again yay! A week away from our winter retreat. What's it about school that just pulls you in and then next thing you know the day is over and what have you done? I amazed it's already wednesday. I need to spend more time with God get back in the Spirit and hopefully that'll make something out of these routine days. School is a bummer, but it's one of the top places I want to see Him work, like never before. So I guess I gotta step up my game.