prayer

so wow i just had a really good personal prayer today since a long time. I just wanted to keep on going but i also have homework:( anyways wow it was awesome.

To Love

What we are meant to do is love. Just love.

But what am I doing? I'm just caught up in the whole being a christian act, what other christians would say about my lifestyle, and just doing for the sake of doing.

I want to know that everything I do is out of love. I don't want to spread the gospel for the sake of me but for the sake of God and for the sake of others. I want to know and have God's heart. I want to be able to chat, talk, sing, and even blog out of love. I want to look and see the broken hearts not the sin that breaks them. I want to be able to cry out for mercy and grace, not for change.

I want to be able to see those that sit at my lunch table and weep as I feel the unsureness as they talk and as I hear what they go through.

I wasn't saved by words, but by Christ's moving love.

I gave this life to Christ, not christianity.

Garden of eden

So wow i had a really good bible study with my dad today. So basically we went over Genesis 3. I was really blown away. I stand in awe of God's love and righteousness. He cursed man and woman and banished them from the Garden because of their disobedience. He could not tolerate sin. He doesn't negotiate with it. He just says plainly to Satan "he will crush your head". Satan who was one of God's top angels, "the model of perfection, full of wisdom and perfect in beauty." But God's love does prevail. When Adam and Eve hide He does not come out angry and exterminate them, He just simply walks into the garden in the cool of the day and sadly calls out "Where are you?". God is heart broken. Adam and Eve are not in the same place they were once in their relationship with God. God makes them garments of skin suggesting he killed an animal. The same animals that Adam and Eve lovingly worked with in the garden and the ones that they knew God also dearly loved. God banishes them from the garden because he doesn't want them to eat of the tree of life, for if they do they would have to live their cursed life forever. Though sad, God already had a plan to redeem man when he said "he will crush your head and you will strike his heel."

And now we're living this promise. The whole story of the Bible comes out of this one event. Every event in the Bible and even events happening now are for the restoration of man, that same perfectness of the garden, and God's image and glory, but this time it will be way better.

New Semester

So hey guys. long time since the last time. haha. So anyways wassup in my life?
So yeah i pulled of a b in calculus yes! 79.6 or something.
Oh yeah i have a new lunch and sitting with some new dudes, so pray that i can be a light for them, except we haven't really talked yet. Just small talk so far...
So time is running out! i can't hesitate!
I feel really queezy inside right now. i just need something more...
I wonder if i'm doing anything wrong. hmmm...
I guess i just want to know more of Him, to be right with Him or probably its just that i have stomach problems idk hahaha jk but seriously my stomach is being weird.
Hmmm what is this? I just need God to satisfy me.i just need more!