To Love God

So hey guys so yeah on tuesday i realized things have been so dry in my life. my prayer times were really meaningless and shallow. I just need to love God with everything. I need for my prayers to be real, a real cry. I see that good things are happening lately but, I realized that everything is nothing if i can't love God. Revival, growth, maturity is nothing. I want to be able to spend real time with Him to be able to follow in His Word each moment. This week i want to really use break He has given me to be with Him more. I'm realizing really how messed up I am. I find myself as bad as the people i pray for who are caught in darkness.

All I want to be is found in You, always and forever.
A light has dawned in my darkness and it's forever You.
Lord, I want to fall in love with You
and sink, sink, sink.

School Days

Yeah these school days are wearing me down recently, but i feel like the next 2 days are going to breeze by. I feel like i get a decent amount of sleep, but i'm still get very tired. So yeah something's going to start. I feel it. In our youth group and at school and in my family. So today i was convicted about this sponsor child my dad gave me named Peter and i haven't wrote him a letter in a long time and i don't think i have the money to get him a gift for the holidays. Man. I'm going to write a letter. ALso I feel like i've neglected Agu in some ways. Sometimes i feel weird thinking about our own little youth group or my own little life when there are millions of kids out there starving and dying, but God has put me where He put me, but maybe one day i can help those kids in a greater way, but for now i need to focus i guess on the responsibilities God is giving me now and i should also pray for the kids.

The Weeping Father

So today as I was praising God, I was just reading a psalm and i just finished reading some of Jeremiah and it had a lot of stuff about God's anger or striking down God's enemies. So I was like yeah what's the deal with that. So I wanted to know more about this side of God and I was thinking God stirs when they sinned, cus it was like a diss everytime and they were fading away. I thought He probably cries over it, but then at the same time He's the mighty God, He's creator, He's so superior why would He cry. And then it hit me He does cry over us, because He loves us so much. Wow who are we to stir God's heart. To be the ones that can be able to make Him rejoice or mourn? Wow that is true love. Think about it. There's so much He had seen. His people fading away from Him, seeing His own Son on a crude manmade cross, to forsake His first beloved! Ultimately we are the ones that are to make Him smile and rejoice. Every time we obey Him and spend time with that's what happens. Even I bet when we do something silly He adores us. Wow it's so awesome to think about

With tears down Your face
You watch Your people fade away

With tears down Your face
You watch Your Son crucify

With tears down Your face
You see us go to shame

And each tear
as a thousand broken hearts

God please don't cry
Let us be the ones to make you smile
as You have made us do too