To Love God

So hey guys so yeah on tuesday i realized things have been so dry in my life. my prayer times were really meaningless and shallow. I just need to love God with everything. I need for my prayers to be real, a real cry. I see that good things are happening lately but, I realized that everything is nothing if i can't love God. Revival, growth, maturity is nothing. I want to be able to spend real time with Him to be able to follow in His Word each moment. This week i want to really use break He has given me to be with Him more. I'm realizing really how messed up I am. I find myself as bad as the people i pray for who are caught in darkness.

All I want to be is found in You, always and forever.
A light has dawned in my darkness and it's forever You.
Lord, I want to fall in love with You
and sink, sink, sink.

School Days

Yeah these school days are wearing me down recently, but i feel like the next 2 days are going to breeze by. I feel like i get a decent amount of sleep, but i'm still get very tired. So yeah something's going to start. I feel it. In our youth group and at school and in my family. So today i was convicted about this sponsor child my dad gave me named Peter and i haven't wrote him a letter in a long time and i don't think i have the money to get him a gift for the holidays. Man. I'm going to write a letter. ALso I feel like i've neglected Agu in some ways. Sometimes i feel weird thinking about our own little youth group or my own little life when there are millions of kids out there starving and dying, but God has put me where He put me, but maybe one day i can help those kids in a greater way, but for now i need to focus i guess on the responsibilities God is giving me now and i should also pray for the kids.

The Weeping Father

So today as I was praising God, I was just reading a psalm and i just finished reading some of Jeremiah and it had a lot of stuff about God's anger or striking down God's enemies. So I was like yeah what's the deal with that. So I wanted to know more about this side of God and I was thinking God stirs when they sinned, cus it was like a diss everytime and they were fading away. I thought He probably cries over it, but then at the same time He's the mighty God, He's creator, He's so superior why would He cry. And then it hit me He does cry over us, because He loves us so much. Wow who are we to stir God's heart. To be the ones that can be able to make Him rejoice or mourn? Wow that is true love. Think about it. There's so much He had seen. His people fading away from Him, seeing His own Son on a crude manmade cross, to forsake His first beloved! Ultimately we are the ones that are to make Him smile and rejoice. Every time we obey Him and spend time with that's what happens. Even I bet when we do something silly He adores us. Wow it's so awesome to think about

With tears down Your face
You watch Your people fade away

With tears down Your face
You watch Your Son crucify

With tears down Your face
You see us go to shame

And each tear
as a thousand broken hearts

God please don't cry
Let us be the ones to make you smile
as You have made us do too

First Communion!

Since I was baptized I got to do communion! It was exciting. It was good to remind myself about His sacrifice. It was really good and very serious. Also this saturday morning we had a prayer meeting. It was so good. First it was just like 5 people, but we kept going even after everyone came. So everyone was praying. We went like 40 minutes over. I think the teachers didn't want it to end, but we also have to do Bible study which is equally important. I felt good. I also realized or remembered that even though we say worship is not just worship. We don't really think that. I realized that worship goes way beyond singing, dancing, or "feeling" the God's presence. It's something that should take all of you, even out of that place of music worship. And realizing that helped me to worship with the songs better. Also I watched Twilight today. It was actually pretty good, but that's probably cus i didn't read the book.

Baptism

so today we were baptized. Yeah its so great because i feel like it's official now or something like that. Or its real and i cant go back.

Excite!

So anyways I'm so excited for Wednesday prayer/praise night! woohoo! yeah that's what we need. I kind of wish that it could be longer and do it instead of ice skating. Oh well anyways this video is really good. You probably already saw it but it's so good.

Busy Day

yeah i have so many things i want to say, but my thoughts are jumbled right now cus i'm tired and wish i had coffee. But yeah today was cool! i thought i had just come to school to fail that day but i did alright! Actually i think i did fail my math test but i have a whole quarter to make up for it now. Yeah and mr. samordic gave me free bateries for my calculator so that was cool. Oh yeah today TLC was fun. My friend Korinn randomly said she wanted to come so awesome! and we played charades! haha

DDD (doned it, did it doed it quote by mr. samordic)

i actually started to do it. Wow. this is so epic for me and weird. I had a lot of encouragement and probably would've never have done it without it. So thanks guys. I don't know why God called me to do it, but I trust He is sovereign and will use it for His Glory. but yeah its actually hard cus it is made well haha. Wow hey i just realized, i can't wait to see what God does with this:) yeah and pierre my back is hurting too now haha. Yes now back to homework and tomorrow FOOOOD yesyesyesyes.

What do you do if God gives you such a difficult and unusual command that you wonder whether this is the real thing or not. I'm in such a tough spot now.

New Blog

Hey wow i made a blog. I didn't mean to. I kind of accidently made one. Well this will be fun.